For the month of December, I’ll be starting a new series. I’m wanting to grow in my spiritual and emotional self. I’ve been struggling a lot with my choices and my confidence. I’ve been knocked down hard these past few months. I keep going back to my prayers. I keep running back to God and asking him to help me, but for whatever reason, I haven’t been receptive of it. I’ve got to stop and accept the help He gives. To trust in Him. I’ve decided to begin a daily devotional. I’ll be using the book, “Trusting God, day to day,” by Joyce Meyer. I’ll add the verse she uses for that day and give my thoughts on that verse. I’d like to know your thoughts as well. Leave a comment and let’s grow and learn together. I ask that respect for each comment or idea. It’s OK to disagree, but be respectful and open-minded. We’re all learning and growing together in this walk of life.
December 1
What Causes Content?
May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope.
Romans 15:13
This verse is so what I needed on this day. I’ve been working on several things that I’ve been passionate about. I have a YouTube channel, Teespring stores, and had an affiliate site. I’ve been working and trying to be successful in these ventures. I’ve been trying to find ways to bring in extra money in our household. I’ve severe limitations that hinder my ability to work outside the home, not impossible but tough. I love the idea of being able to work from home. I lost the affiliate business after the trial period. I was actually starting to do well when I got that dreaded email from Amazon. I wasn’t enough of an influencer or had enough followers on any of my social media accounts. I’m not very tech savvy or apparently don’t extremely interesting topics, so my YouTube channel is a very slow growing channel. We’re so grateful for the true supporters and actually watch and interact with us, but it’s hard to see 400+ subscribers and only get less than 20 views and only 30 seconds per video views. I’ll admit, it’s hard to see others succeed in such a short period of time doing what I love so much. I’m always supportive and excited for those who do succeed. I even help lift them up and share their businesses or channels. I’ve started with designing tee shirts and other items. Thanks to the support of my mom, I’ve sold 3 items on there. I’m appreciative of that. It’s been a real kick in the teeth to know that no one really is interested in what I have to offer. That I have no marketable skills that appeal to people. It’s been hard, so hard to believe in myself and my dreams, when time after time I fail.
I also love baking and cooking. Again, here I’m not very successful. A lot of what I enjoy isn’t enjoyable by others. They’re more on the healthier side, or not a usual type of dessert(candy cane bread, chili, etc.) I’m not able to share my jams or breads with others. My family are supportive, but again not sellable. I’ve decided I’ll no longer be making jams or baking. My dreams of having a market stand is fading away. I’ll of course make what my children love, but I wont be sharing them anymore with others. I try and try, but never seem to succeed. I research, practice, put so much time and energy in what I do, but it never pans out. Why keep setting myself up for failure?
I pray and ask God to help guide me to what His plan is for me. I’m impatient waiting on Him to lead me to my success. As I help others achieve their dreams and keep pushing mine to the back burner, I can’t help but wonder why it can’t be me as well? I know all things are on His time. I waited until my 38th year to begin pursuing my dreams and passions, because I was scared of failure again. I keep going back to the very things that I can’t seem to get going. I have a desire to design shirts and items, vlog my experiences with my beautiful family, use this blog to share my thoughts, I’d love to have my affiliate business back. I enjoy doing these things. I also enjoy helping others achieve their dreams and bring in extra money by working from home. I don’t regret helping them and will continue to do so. I hope that one day it’ll be my turn. I’m not asking to be a millionaire, but a few extra hundred a month would be nice.
I have to work on TRUSTING in God and His timing. My contentment in the life he has given me and realize that He is in control. He’ll lead me to the successes he has in store for me. I have to trust that God will point me to where He wants me to go. I have to let go and let God. It’s so very hard to just do that. I still have to live the failures. I still have to experience the disappointment in losing the dreams I had for myself because they’re not the dreams God had for me. I have to learn to stop fighting Him and listen. As soon as I can start doing that, I know I’ll be happier and more content in knowing that working from home or having my market stand is a not viable option for me and that He’ll help me find a job outside the home conducive to my limitations.
*****Newest design in our Holiday store! I’m working on two more designs. We also have a YT merch store, and a patriotic store! Great gift ideas!*****
No comments:
Post a Comment